| | have you ever experienced something so wonderful
you are just taken over with emotion?
i've been crying for hours now.
sitting in my hotel room in paris, alone.
this is how it compares:
#1
i was saved as a small child,
so the moment i had as an adult when it all made
real sense and i really confessed
and had real things to confess and had to learn
to really be loved and forgiven.
#2
this is where i am at right now in my life.
i am so overwhelmed with love and admiration for daniel.
i miss him terribly, i hurt inside.
i've never felt so free and so protected at the same time.
i do not question any area of his life or any aspect of his love
for me.
i really feel for the 1st time that God is shining his love for
me down through daniel.
we get married in less than 2 months. i cannot wait.
it's so hard not to let yourself get carried away by
just the excitement and nervousness of the wedding day.
it's not about that, it about loving someone
loving everything about them and having NO DOUBT
about their love for you.
i really never thought i would find this.
i am scared though. i have never wanted to be the best i
could for someone else, i hope i can be a loving wife.
people in paris are so loving, at every age, pda is not a bad thing.
i think it helps and it makes everyone around them
want to be in love as well.
it really is the city of love,
i want to carry that home with me.
there have been so many older couples kissing and still holding
hands like they are crazy teenagers.
i pray we can be that way.
he is the best thing that has happened to me and i want to
protect him and our love from the outside world.
june 2nd is coming quickly.
it's just all hit me hard how real this all is.
we haven't been dating for the last 8 months, it's been real
no games, just love and honesty.
he is taking care of all of the wedding plans while i am gone.
i am thankful he is so responsible and is just as excited as i am.
i am so thankful that he has so much respect and consideration
to what is important to me.
he has been doing my personal business as well, and watering
all of my plants!
it just all means so much.
he made our 1 yr. anniversary beautiful...
people on this trip talk about being a virgin like it's a bad thing.
everyone does that.
like its a bad word.
why?
we are and i cannot tell you how excited i am that we are exchanging
purity rings at the wedding and that in less
than 2 months i can give myself to the man god made for me and him to me.
there are just so many feelings and emotions involved with
giving your life to someone,
its a big deal.
i am up for the challenge.
#3
telling someone you've loved forever that you love them,
that you really do.
there are those family relationships where you don't
question the love but its never expressed.
the morning my brother left to move to nashville
he came and woke me up,
sat next to me on my bed.
we talked for a bit but then he said he loved me and
i responded. i think for the first time.
i cried as i watched out the window him leaving.
#4
the birth of my nieces and nephew.
you cannot ask for a better blessing,
they are so pure and will know you their entire life.
they will hopefully look up to you and think you are
the coolest and want to be just like you.
thats a huge responsibility and a great privilege.
this really hit me with the 2nd birth, ruby jane.
i cried and prayed because i was not going to be around
as much as i wanted because of college,
i wanted to be able to love her as much as reagan
and i hope she liked me, i was so scared she would
not like me.
god always proves himself,
i think these breakdowns are good.
my roommate and i were talking the other night
about the saying
"men marry a woman hoping she will never change
and she does, women marry hoping the man will
change and he never does."
i think i am at one of those changing times.
men learn, grow, and improve themselves
and their actions and thoughts,
women learn, grow, and change themselves into
something better and more beautiful.
not that one is better than the other, that is just how
we are made.
maybe one day i will realize exactly what the change is.
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